Currently Reading He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys By Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo see related

Everyone should go read "He's Just Not That Into You." It will inspire you, I swear! Even guys should read it so therefore they can realize all the wrong things they're doing. Because of this book, I've made some life-changing decisions. I'm getting rid of all the losers in my life. No more wasting my time on guys that just aren't that into me. I'm also not going out with a guy that doesn't ask me first; why would I want to be with a coward too shy or lazy to do the work? I'm going to be with someone great who wants to make me happy! I can also think of several girls right now suffering from guys that just aren't that great. No one should have to settle.

Here's some things from the book:

1. Because if he likes you, trust me, he will ask you out.

2.Guys know how to use the phone.

3."Hanging out" is NOT dating.

4.When guys like you, they want to touch you, always

5.There's never going to be a good excuse for cheating.

6.If he likes you, he'll wantto see you when his judgement isn't impaired.

7.Love cures commitment- phobia.

8."I don't want to go out with you" means just that.

9.Sometimes you have to get closure all by yourself.

10.If you're not able to love freely, it's not really love.

11.If you really love someone, you want to do things to make that person happy.

Finally, you should believe in love the verb, not the noun.

Summer Stuff

I got a job. I'll be working in the Industrial Engineering office answering the phone and running errands etc. I'm still shocked I got the job; so many people were wanting that job, calling and emailing and somehow they chose me. And offered me the job for Term 2 as well. I'm working Term 1 starting June 12 and working for four weeks. I was suppose to start June 5 but I'll be out of town.

Monday my dad, sister, brother, Matt, and me will leave for the Bahamas!! We're staying in Atlantis my favorite FAVORITE place ever!! I love it there! I'm soo excited!! The only thing worrying me is flying there. I'm absolutely scared of flying. Matt says he'll just drug me up so i'll sleep the entire plane ride. I'm nervous about the plane ride and totally dreading it!

Currently Listening How To Save A Life By The Fray see related

The Fray concert was awesome!! I love the Fray!! If you don't know who they are you definately need to check out their music!

Oh and I passed all my classes! I got all A's which i'm totally excited about! Thankfully I have about two months off before summer school... ew!

And yea... I miss him...

It's funny how situations can seem once you step back and look at the big picture. You realize that you are headed for a train wreck; you realize you are going to get hurt. But you do it anyways, you put yourself out there knowing you are going to get hurt, knowing that one day you may regret it. But the way I see it, why go halfway? If you're going to get hurt either way, why not just jump head first and put all you have into these last few moments of happiness and in the end, be left alone to pick up the pieces and deal with the hurt and pain that you knew from the beginning you would feel.

I feel hurt, I feel confused. I want to scream and shout and yell that this is not fair, that life is not fair!! I don't want this to happen and I don't deserve it. But I know that I can't. I have to be mature and face facts.  I knew what I was getting myself into when I started this, and I have to deal with it to the end. Who knows what will happen in the future. Maybe it will all work out later on in life, maybe it won't and I'll one day realize it was for the best. But for now, I have to do what I want to do; I know in the end I will be the one suffering, the one asking "why did this have to happen to me?" but I hope that one day, it will seem worth it to go through all this pain. I shouldn't pick someone that doesn't choose me, I shouldn't put forth so much effort when it is not returned, and I shouldn't put myself out there knowing I will get hurt. But I do it anyways, I have done it anyways, and now I must deal with the consequences.

On a different note, I recently had an encounter with someone and realized that everything that I had been brought up to believe has been false. Everything that I learned in church, everything I was taught in Sunday School, seems useless to me now. Why did I trust these people? Why did I take what they said as truth? I should have always looked strictly and solely to the Bible for my answers. I used to think that I knew everything; now I see the truth and must struggle to make others see their wrong thinking.  What I was taught cannot be found in the Bible so I must disregard it. I hate denominations. I hate them with a passion. We should all be one, we should all be one church, in unity. My eyes have been opened to the truth. Where no one else ever bothered to show me the way, at last someone has come along, someone unexpected, and revealed the truth to me and backed it up with scripture. It is a breath of fresh air, it is a relief. I will continue to look for answers and figure out all this stuff, but now I see everything with a completely new perspective and I like it...